Life changes

There are some serious life changes happening in my life.  Some good, some hard, and some that just need to be kicked out the door.

We have decided to move to the north of Sweden.  We have been in Gothenburg area for the last five years.  I have so many emotions…… seriously  I am all over the place with my emotions. One moment I am thinking let’s get out of here now.  Then I am upset because I can’t imagine leaving all our friends and the place we call home.  Change is hard, but the weird thing is I think I secretly crave it.  Please tell me there are more of you out there like this.

I am not going to lie I have gone through some dark and lonely times living in Sweden. More than I have ever in my life.  When I look back I can get really discouraged.  At one point I remember saying to my self this has been the biggest waste in my life.  I haven’t  done a single thing I had hope to do (I know thats a lie). I sat there thinking.  Christy all of the friends you have and hang out with you have made yourself.  By putting your self out there.  You have given birth twice( 1 c-setion and 1 natural birth) in a forienge country, you have learned to master driving stick in a big city and driving on ice.  You can go grocery shopping and understand what you are buying.  Learning how to live with really horrible weather at times (remember I am from Hawaii).  I realized every single day at one point, I am completely uncomfortable!

        Uncomfortable every single DAY!

 You get the point. I realized in that moment I am so strong.  I thought about how many would have left, given up.

I made it!

I am still here and there is still so much I want to do.   I am slowly coming out. I pushing my weakness into strengths.  I just want to encourage you guys don’t give up.  I know its hard….. trust me I know, but also know you can do anything you put your mind to!  Be brave and you will realize how strong you really are.

 

Here is a song from Bethel

Slow down, take time
Breathe in He said
He’d reveal what’s to come
The thoughts in His mind
Always higher than mine
He’ll reveal all to come

Take courage, my heart
Stay steadfast, my soul
He’s in the waiting
He’s in the waiting
And hold onto your hope
As your triumph unfolds
He’s never failing
He’s never failing

Sing praise, my soul
Find strength in joy
Let His words lead you on
Do not forget
His great faithfulness
He’ll finish all He’s begun

So take courage, my heart
Stay steadfast, my soul
He’s in the waiting
He’s in the waiting
And hold onto your hope
As your triumph unfolds
He’s never failing
He’s never failing

So take courage, my heart
Stay steadfast, my soul
He’s in the waiting
He’s in the waiting
And hold onto your hope
As your triumph unfolds
He’s never failing
He’s never failing

And You who hold the stars
Who call them each by name
Will surely keep, Your promise to me
That I will rise, in Your victory
And You who hold the stars
Who call them each by name
Will surely keep, Your promise to me
That I will rise, in Your victory!

 

photo by elin click here for her work