Risk and Fear


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“Risk opens the door to opportunity” -Blue Bloods

How good is this quote? So good it just slapped you in the face! Right! This is my motto for this season! I am really trying to brake out into new things this year.  I have been wanting to do some of these things for years (this blog being one of them) and I have just let day by day go by because of fear or scared of the risk.  It is almost stupid when I think about it.  Instead of being annoyed with myself and just decieded to take small steps daily towards the direction of where I want to be in the next coming year.  It’s hard but I think it will be so worth it.

My friend James just started his youtube channel click here.  His first video is about becoming an idea machine and basically developing your muscle in your brain.  Its pretty interesting. So you have to write 10 ideas a day on different subjects.  He is doing it off of a book which I can’t remember at the moment and I don’t feel like watching the video again, but I am interested to try this. I feel like I come up with ideas all the time but I fail to execute things.  Which is the worst part. If you don’t execute who cares if you have a brilliant idea. It is just an idea. So basically I just want to see if this inspires more creative outlets for me or just makes me feel overwhelmed with all my ideas.  Please just slap me.

I am not going to post what I write every day here because that I not what this space if for, I was however very surprised with how this one prompt made me think.   The prompt was write down things you don’t like and see how you can be greatful for them.  I like to think I am positive person and grateful for a lot things.

gustation,kids,pika,modern design,scandiic design, modern design,  I write often in a journal what I am thankful, but I never sit down and think what do I don’t like.  So it actually took me a while to find things.  After I sat down and did it I was pretty shocked at how it made me feel. A lot of things where changing habits.

So even more now I want to embrace fear, I want to feel it, touch it and walk through it. I want to take risks that take my breath away that make me have a dance party in my living (ok i have those everyday….really) I want to see how my small little nothing dream becomes a reality.  No longer in my head and heart but in my hand and in the hands of others.

Its time to set off!  Ok so what that really means is its time for some really hard work.

A year from now you may wish you had started today -Karen Lamb


Sweet dirt



Not pictured is how little dirt made the pot. Love her
Majken eating everything she shouldn’t
This old cooper wash tub was my husbands grandparents. This is what they used to wash their clothes in


Winter is coming! Really  though winter is coming so that means its time to change flowers, trim the apple trees, plant the garlic and onions…..best of all eat what is left of summer. I am learning so many things about autumn and winter.  Especially when it comes to growing things.  Coming from Hawaii which really has no seasons I am not used to all this stuff.  I barely know how to dress for the winter here. I seriously ask my husband how to dress the kids and myself  all the time. “Do they need long underwear under this now?”  “Do they need a beanie” “Do they need to have a sweater under the overalls” and so much more.  Good thing he loves me. I would be so annoyed.  Its hard to dress kids before it winter because it can be almost freezing in the morning and then in the afternoon is warm and you are running around with no jacket. See its hard. Plus at the age of the girls they don’t really tell me if they are cold or hot.  Coco is finally starting to learn but half the time she just repeats me. So continues the confusion.


This is our little green house. This year we kept it super simple as we where in Hawaii for most of the summer.  We have tomatoes and cucumber and some bell pepper in the green house this year.  This is Coco’s happy place. She loves being in here. The rocks, pots, dirt, sticks and her little water can.   Sometimes its not my favorite to have her help.  But I hope she will have memories of helping me in there and playing by my feet.  Plus she can eat more tomatoes then any two year old.  I swear she must think they are strawberries or something.


After trimming the apple trees I was pulling up some weeds (picture below around Le’i) Le’i was like mom I want those.  Ok and I set them aside not thinking much of them.  Couple minutes later he comes like this.  We where laughing so hard.  Mind you its not warm here in Sweden.  I love his sense of humor.  IMG_6720 IMG_6723 IMG_6724

The girls just woke up.  Time to go outside and rake up all the leaves…..its not as romantic as its sounds. 🙂